* even though things are going the way it is right now, blah blah blah, theres so many other things i would want to say to you. there was never a real answer that was given to me. but you never really understood, or did you? its like how everything was just put together, i was happy, really happy. i still had doubts, but i took the chance anyways. and after a lot of things, til now, i'm happy you were part of my life. i respect you in so many ways. its funny because i found that ''spot'' in you. haha never ever thought that would happen. many things were said. i kept you close to my heart. you left a finger print on my heart that would never go away how much i try. you made me feel something i had never felt before. I cared for you so much, my heart ached. it was how you made me feel. the words, each and every one of them. now that is over... i can't seem to focus on anything. i walk around with my head down. i am afraid to move on knowing that i know i don't have you anymore. everything is just memories now. you, i will cherish a life time. i loved you.
the past does affect me now. i just don't feel comfortable knowing everything but at the same time i really do wanna know. why do i ask when i know its gonna hurt. why do i bother going through all that bs again. i just wanna let it go! i cant let it go..
theough all the good & the bad times, this is yet the worst i`ve ever felt. is it a heart break?, or a break down? i don`t know. all i know is that it hurts deep down and every where around, in places i never knew i could get hurt. i`m dying inside & it`s driving me crazy.